Diary of kalpalata duttahttp://wondering.rediffiland.com/Diary of kalpalata duttaen-usJust go on..Some shadowy days had come that swept me of all happiness leaving only depressions..I didn't know what my heart was searching for or may be that i did not realise it..!

But suddenly from somewhere a gentle breeze came which did me no good as such but left me with a relaxed mind..Life had introduced me to a new outlook..some smiling faces laughing and joking away with no trace of worries on their faces..!As if they were saying "Look!this is the way to change life's mood."Truely,they were really happy..!

With this light air as i entered office,the same serious,competative faces did not affect me..For sure i have learnt something..Life has in store something for everyone and it will surely take us to our destination according to its time and mood..But in the meantime we have to go on happily and sincerely..not letting the outside storm destroy the peace reigning in our heart and mind..!!


]]>Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:58:37 +0530http://wondering.rediffiland.com/blogs/2008/02/12/Just-go-on-.htmlLife seems to have stopped....!!!!Right from our childhood we are taught to dream and plan our future..we strive hard from then onwards impatient to grow up to see our hardwork reward us....But in this chase we neglect all opportunities of enjoying life....


Last 5 years of my education was away from home..All time there was only one thing going on in my mind.."have to reach my goals"..But away from home automatically gives you a new world..A world of freedom..freedom to do anything...it feels as if you are flying in the wide blue sky...!!!!


And i enjoyed..though at times things were so tough that i wished i could get out of this place as soon as possible..!!After being in my parent's shelter for so long,it was time to face the harsh world,its evils and good...time to change myself to learn to adjust to survive....


Now those 5 years are over..I targeted to reach the sun,i've atleast reached the moon..But life has lost all its excitements,friends have made the proverb "out of sight out of mind" come true..I'm tierd of monotony..there are many people around me but they seem to lack the spirit of enjoyment or it may be that i'm not finding it..!!I want to talk but can't understand what to say and how to start..??It seems as if much to my unconcienceness a wall has been build up around me..I'm crying aloud for someone to hep me...but nobody can hear..I've been confined..My breath is obstucted..But my eyes still waiting for someone who will come along that way to break the wall....!!!!!


This is not me..!!!Where are my friends?Those canteens,class bunks,those funs,restuarents,movies,parties,long chats,those comforting words of friends...........where are they??I'm missing my real self! True,i'm missing those 5 years inspite of all its tensions,though at that time i wanted them to be over........................But alas!! They can never come back..!!


Life seems to have stopped.....
















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